my personal photography-based journal, a record of my self-growth, slower days, adventures, and thoughts of the things that inspire me.

a path of strength

Finding my outlet to turn my thoughts into words, the new year pursues a different path for me. 2020 was a year of pushing my luck which fortunately led me to somewhat contrasting achievements than what I intended to. Those small achievements were the best and I couldn't have asked for more. 2020 felt like the straightening iron, instead of my hair, it straightened my life.

I'm leading the new year to a different path, a path of strengthening myself, the people (or dogs) around me, and the life goals I aspire to. As I reread the sentences before this, I begin to acknowledge the challenges ahead. I am not a very active person nor a goal setter. What's worst is, despite having "patient" as one of my strong suits, when it comes to achieving something personal, I am the opposite. 

Recently, I have graduated with a master's degree in business administration. I am proud of that achievement, and to be honest, my thinking was the fruit of all my work to accomplish that education. However, no matter how badly I want to mentally rest, there's no way I would be able to. This is not just because of the adjustments I have been doing, but also because I don't want to stop growing. I have recently developed a fear of the world leaving me behind once I stop growing and developing mentally. Yet another part of me wants to just mentally stop and take a breather. 

'Have I not been taking a breather for the past years?' This is the question that runs through my head as soon as the other part of me clings for mental rest. I can't really answer this question generally, as I have been doing as much and less for myself. Maybe, with all that I'm willing to do and take this new year, I could finally reflect and find the answer to this question. 

I can't say that I want to become a better person neither do I have a list of resolutions. I just desperately want to lead the new year into a different path of strengthening myself and becoming a capable person who can handle herself in spite of the situations. I'll lead a life of discovering new things and continuing the things I do best, the things that define me. Are those enough to trigger change? Maybe, maybe not, and there's only one way to find out.


  1. Happy New Year, Kandice! Wishing you all the best for the year :) I felt lots of hope and determination from reading your blog entry, and it has inspired me. Thank you for lending us your energy.

    Anna Jo / http://helloannajo.blogspot.com

    1. what a lovely comment anna! i appreciate it. I have so much emotions and I love to put them into words.

  2. congrats on your M.A., Kandice! what an amazing achievement indeed. wishing you a wonderful and abundant 2021. ✨

    Xx http://theactivespirit.com/


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