A second child is coming all too soon this summer. We are having another boy, and like his big brother, he comes when the sun shines the brightest. He was planned, both of them were, but I didn't expect him to come too soon. Honestly, I am so excited to meet him, although I am still trying to prepare emotionally for how to be a mother to two kids.
The first year of being a mother was a challenge, a new routine, life changes, and a completely new addition to the family. They said that having a second one won't be as hard as the first. And I know that caring for the second baby won't be as difficult as it was, but definitely having to care for two kids will be a new stage.
I am a little bit scared too. Not because of two kids, but because of the postpartum I dealt with the first time. I was not myself, and I felt so emotionally unstable. I had separation anxiety with my baby, and I refused to let anyone take care of my little one, not even my husband. I refused to go anywhere with a crying baby and even stayed at home for more than a year. I lost some friends and even lost myself. I didn't have any hobbies anymore, I didn't have time for myself, and I didn't focus at anything but survival. I'm going through this again soon, and all I ask for is patience and support.
Despite knowing what comes next, I know for sure that I need to be prepared for turning my life into a little bit of chaos with two kids. I love that they will grow up as brothers, and I hope they will turn to each other in times of need. I also hope that my best is enough in raising them without having too many doubts or fears. One day they will know how much we wanted them, and raising them will be the highlight of our lives.
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